12.08.2003
Always, Every Time...
'Cause I need love, love's divine | Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind | Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name...~ Seal, Love's Divine
I’ve always loved Seal. There’s something about his raspy not quite smooth yet, velvety voice that just takes me to a place full of comfort or, is it warmth, or maybe even possibilities. Yeah, I think that’s it, possibilities.
Today my boy Kevin.Daily spoke about one of my most favorite books, The Four Agreements. I purchased this book in the Summer of 2000 for myself and this dude I was seeing at the time. I had just finished reading Friendships with God, In the Meantime, and If the Buddha Dated and felt based on it’s [The Four Agreements] promise to rapidly transform my life to a new experience of freedom, true happiness and love, I’d give it a shot.
I’d met old boy not long before and we immediately allowed ourselves to get sucked into a whirlwind relationship. Initially it seemed right: We shared many of the same beliefs; had read many of the same spiritual enlightening books; and seemed to really vibe the first time we formally met. And, to top it all off he said something that night I didn’t expect:
“I’ve been wanting you for years.”
I smiled, not knowing what else to say. “Word?”
“Seriously. But I’ve been too afraid to approach you. Call me a punk if you want but, I was scared as hell!”
I laughed. “Scared! Scared of what!”
“Of you not wanting me.” He whispered softly. “Of being rejected…”
I stood there staring into his eyes lost. That was the very first time anyone had ever admitted to watching me, or rather desiring me from a distance. So, if nothing else about him caught my interest that shit alone turned me on…
*Sighs heavily* Why is it so many us enjoy the emotional roller coaster toxic relationships takes us on? Why is it we expect so much from so little? Why is it we often find it difficult to resist these towering-awe inspiring larger than life rides? Why is it we cringe every time we find ourselves in the same situation, only to blink, and find ourselves right back there again?
Old boy and I ended our supposed love of a lifetime before summer’s end. Emotionally it drained me, and I swore off love and its deadly lure forever. Little did I know The Four Agreements would quickly alter that promise…
In reading it I learned first hand how I assumed, took way too much shit personally, wasn’t exactly impeccable with my word, and did not do my best to protect myself from the deadly temptation of a lethal love…
What does any of this have to deal with Seal’s new album IV? Everything. Seal speaks to me the very same way Don Miguel Ruiz does. Through his heartfelt lyrics he challenges me to get it together; he shows me how divine love really is; and how simply infectious and magnetic a touch from someone you love can be.
Seal’s new album takes me to a place I like being, peaceful. So many of today’s artists make their living shocking each other, their fans, and the world. It seems they’ve forgotten the most important force one needs to move people, love. Not lust. Not scantily clad bodies. Not bling, bling…just plain ole’ simple is it good to ya’, love. That shit that helps you know your name. That shit that keeps you dreaming of a better tomorrow. A tomorrow that will see all your dreams and desires come into themselves.
I miss that. I long for that, and Seal always gives it to me. Always, every time.
I’ve always loved Seal. There’s something about his raspy not quite smooth yet, velvety voice that just takes me to a place full of comfort or, is it warmth, or maybe even possibilities. Yeah, I think that’s it, possibilities.Today my boy Kevin.Daily spoke about one of my most favorite books, The Four Agreements. I purchased this book in the Summer of 2000 for myself and this dude I was seeing at the time. I had just finished reading Friendships with God, In the Meantime, and If the Buddha Dated and felt based on it’s [The Four Agreements] promise to rapidly transform my life to a new experience of freedom, true happiness and love, I’d give it a shot.
I’d met old boy not long before and we immediately allowed ourselves to get sucked into a whirlwind relationship. Initially it seemed right: We shared many of the same beliefs; had read many of the same spiritual enlightening books; and seemed to really vibe the first time we formally met. And, to top it all off he said something that night I didn’t expect:
“I’ve been wanting you for years.”
I smiled, not knowing what else to say. “Word?”
“Seriously. But I’ve been too afraid to approach you. Call me a punk if you want but, I was scared as hell!”
I laughed. “Scared! Scared of what!”
“Of you not wanting me.” He whispered softly. “Of being rejected…”
I stood there staring into his eyes lost. That was the very first time anyone had ever admitted to watching me, or rather desiring me from a distance. So, if nothing else about him caught my interest that shit alone turned me on…
*Sighs heavily* Why is it so many us enjoy the emotional roller coaster toxic relationships takes us on? Why is it we expect so much from so little? Why is it we often find it difficult to resist these towering-awe inspiring larger than life rides? Why is it we cringe every time we find ourselves in the same situation, only to blink, and find ourselves right back there again?
Old boy and I ended our supposed love of a lifetime before summer’s end. Emotionally it drained me, and I swore off love and its deadly lure forever. Little did I know The Four Agreements would quickly alter that promise…
In reading it I learned first hand how I assumed, took way too much shit personally, wasn’t exactly impeccable with my word, and did not do my best to protect myself from the deadly temptation of a lethal love…
What does any of this have to deal with Seal’s new album IV? Everything. Seal speaks to me the very same way Don Miguel Ruiz does. Through his heartfelt lyrics he challenges me to get it together; he shows me how divine love really is; and how simply infectious and magnetic a touch from someone you love can be.
Seal’s new album takes me to a place I like being, peaceful. So many of today’s artists make their living shocking each other, their fans, and the world. It seems they’ve forgotten the most important force one needs to move people, love. Not lust. Not scantily clad bodies. Not bling, bling…just plain ole’ simple is it good to ya’, love. That shit that helps you know your name. That shit that keeps you dreaming of a better tomorrow. A tomorrow that will see all your dreams and desires come into themselves.
I miss that. I long for that, and Seal always gives it to me. Always, every time.
